End of June 2020.

Intuitive reading + general update / messages.

From my upcoming The Bridgekeepers deck ( collaboration with @lucyslittlefarmhouse)

" I see you and I see myself. The peace within... heartbeat steady. I am home. I am free. " (Divine counterparts)

"Cut my wings, cut them! Cut them and weep... for all you ever wanted was to fly."

"Truth is a choice. Let it be mine vs. yours.

" Your emotions are not you. Create a feeling of safety by seeing how emotions are a sense"

The energies I've been pick up lately are really trying to show us the way to our own authenticity. By making it nearly impossible for us to keep lying to ourselves regarding what we want. Settling is worse than giving up. Putting on a mask and "getting it over with" is torturous. On a new level. But this is something that we experienced for a brief period of time ( 3-4 days) exactly a year ago. My guides are saying that whatever happened a year ago, during those three days, is something you would recall instantly. I'm imagining that that's not for everyone.

Take it as it resonates.

Whatever it was, it felt like " oh hell no I am not continuing with this"

I'm guided to share what I went through because it was so “severe”, and I think the energy of that situation is what is being brought up right now... even if it looks different for all of us.

A year ago, something a close person to me said (don't recall what, but it made me feel repressed, unseen, made a fool out of) pushed me over the edge. I dissociated SO HARD.. it was so painful that I couldn't stay in my body... I fled to my Higher Selves plain of view. What's interesting is that my eyes were closed but I remember seeing absolutely everything. I cried non stop for 5 hours. Didn't say a word. My family tried to approach me.. they apologised for everything and nothing, then threatened me if I didn't start talking, then apologising, then crying themselves... and after about 5 hours they had adapted and started to ignore me. By now my behaviour turned into a "norm” for them. I didn't speak for 2 more days. Non stop channeling during that time. It was intense. It was a sort of death of Self / rebirth. I just couldn't care about what was projected in the 3D. I just couldn't hold up the facades no more. So I didn't.

Of course, as healing comes is loops, I grew past that experience.... but now, a year later I'm back... but this time I am consciously choosing to enter that same " plain of view" ( ie channel mode activated lol). What brought me here was the RESISTANCE to absolutely everything. And when I asked the Universe to show me what I was resistant to I kept seeing the "death of self" that happened in end of June last year. To be completely honest I didn't even recall that that had happened a year ago. It was such a intense situation that all of last summer is "out of time" for me.

Back to the reading.

It has something to do with re-integration with our true selves. Letting our traumas die? Somehow all of us, resonating with what I'm sharing, are being shown how I (our identity in the now) is really a fragment. It's a part. It's not the true I. It's not our True Self. Now the resistance is towards continuing to create ANYTHING if it's not in alignment with our True Self. This is a shift internally. It's hard. Almost like a personality has to die, in order for us to see that it was a mask. Masks are made to be worn. And we should wear our masks, they serve a purpose. That's not the issue. They issue is that we forget what's underneath, we forget to have a clear boundary. That Boundary is our TRUE SELF. Our Ego. We can no longer create if it's not in alignment with that.

It makes sense to me now that the Divine counterpart card came up, since the Union is indeed a journey home to True Self. The Journey home is magnified.

"Cut my wings, cut them! Cut them and weep... for all you ever wanted was to fly."

I almost always see this cars as a kind of sad one... it's just a shame that people lack connection with one another. But that is a CHOICE.. Let Others Voluntarily Evolve.. I feel that this is calling us back to our own power. Not depending on others to tell us how and what we should do.. and, more importantly, how and what we are worth. Together with integrating back to True Self I think this has to do with showing compassion and being a source of stillness. This might make no sense but - in a war, the only safe place is a/the place of stillness. Be that safe place. To yourself and to others. I'm hearing "humility". There will be conflict. Make sure to know your own truth... make sure that the conflict is not on the inside. It's like this is a push right now - an opportunity to NOT move forward until the resistance is resolved. Imagine the resistance being a push from Source. You can choose to take is as your own, or you can choose to bulldoze it. So it's not like you WON'T be able to move forward on anything, it's more like you are given the opportunity to not be able to move forward on anything! An opportunity to make that war WITHIN you so ugly, loud and unpleasant that you choose to resolve it in a loving way ( recommending: The Completion process by Teal Swan).

By doing that it's like you're setting all your priorities straight. It's like you're building a stable foundation. As you have that, you are no longer constantly thrown into different directions, you are consistent and you are seeing progress. Most importantly you are feeling CALM on the inside. And you're not worried about the outcome. This is a very powerful energy, use it!

I love you guys, thank you for all your support!

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