Long forgotten travel

We go in loops. We lose ourselves. And we never see the root-cause until darkness sweeps the ground from underneath us.

Go to the places you’re meant to go, look at the pain that’s being presented to you, but don’t let the pain win. You are provided with guidance everywhere you go, but you reject so much of it. There is no moving forward until you acknowledge that there are people around you that are truly, honestly looking out for your best interests. People who genuinely want to help, and you reject them. You reject them because you don’t like the help that they are offering. You don’t like the help they are offering because you want that help to look a different way. And it won’t. The help they are offering comes in the specific way that you need it, but you reject it, just as you reject yourself.

Look at the loop you find yourself in. Take a chance to accept the help that feels so negative-icky to you, because maybe you actually don’t know what’s best for you at all. If you fear that your closest people are not looking out for you at all, then ask them questions ” if (abc) happened, what would you do?” and see how they answer. Perhaps you will notice that the people you’ve disregarded, and labeled ”oh they are just kind to everyone”, actually deeply care for you. And they are on your side, even when you aren’t.